Oh how I’ve missed you and your little ones sweet faces. It’s been a minute but I needed a moment. Let’s catch up shall we?! So this past year…I moved halfway across the country with my tribe, I got preggers with my 3rd baby (a boy surprise, surprise…that’s 3 boys if you have been keeping count!) and I had a gorgeous, tiny little human in January. He’s 6 months now and I am finally feeling like I can do more than just, well…mother.
Trust me I feel guilty and bad about kind of vanishing…but that is what I have done every single time I have become pregnant. I hibernate. I withdraw, I shut down while trying to open up my body and nurture a life. After my first pregnancy 9 years ago ended in a miscarriage – I felt so nervous about being pregnant. I secretly worried until after the birth for fear of getting too attached. I have had 2 of my 5 pregnancies end in miscarriage and the anguish of telling and sharing and loosing is diminished when no one knows. And this time, the idea that it would be my last pregnancy kind of just gave me all the feels. I am so blessed and grateful for 3 healthy boys, yet a bit sad and mourning my last days of being a new mom. My baby making days are now in the past and a new chapter is beginning. And all the hormones haven’t helped. I’ve been an emotional mess! I’ve really tried to slow down and soak it all up.
But…I have been busy, because well…LIFE. And now that I am in a new city I feel like I have so much more to share with you guys about trying to get your babies in the modeling biz…especially when you live outside of a major market. I’m in Memphis, TN…and folks it is NOTHING like NYC. I’m making the most of it and I can’t wait to share what I have learned. I also can’t wait to take you on the journey with my little munchkins – the good and the bad. There isn’t much of a baby market here in the midsouth to begin with so I haven’t really done much with #3 but my older kids have been working so that is exciting!
I am looking forward to reconnecting with some of you and getting to know all the new Mocha’s. As always feel free to email me firstname.lastname@example.org. Now let’s get (back) to work!
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